Jason Watkins has spoken out about losing his two-and-a-half-year-old daughter Maude to sepsis on New Year’s Day in 2011.
The Crown actor, 53, revealed he was ‘angry for a long time’ at fate for taking the child he shared with his wife Clara Francis.
In 2010 a persistent cough and consequent respiratory problems prompted two consecutive visits to a hospital A&E, where Maude was initially diagnosed with croup, a type of respiratory infection.
But within two weeks of developing her first symptoms she was dead. She had in fact fallen victim to sepsis, an insidious illness in which the immune system reacts violently to infection, attacks its own tissue and eventually leads to organ failure.
Speaking to The Sunday Times Magazine, he said: ‘Clara and I felt cheated.’
He described the pattern of his grief changing over time, from an acute pain to a ‘heart-shaped feeling that you carry around for ever.’
Jason Watkins, pictured with his wife Clara Francis – the mother of his three children Bessie, Maude and Gilbert – in November last year, has spoken out about his daughter Maude’s death
Jason and Clara – who already had an older daughter Bessie, 13 – decided to try for another child after Maude’s death.
He added: ‘Life was not going to rob us of our happiness. And Gilbert has brought us so much happiness.’
Their son, now eight, is obsessed with his iPad and Nintendo and Jason went on to explain he has to limit time on the devices to 20 minutes a day – which caused a lot of temper tantrums.
The Crown actor, 53, revealed he was ‘angry for a long time’ at fate when Maude (pictured) died of sepsis on New Year’s Day in 2011
In the magazine’s A Life In The Day segment Jason described a 6am wake-up call before he fed his children toast for breakfast.
According to the Trollied star his wife’s role in a play means she doesn’t get back until late and Jason has to look after the children in the morning.
He will then prepare his children’s evening meals while they are away at school, and he says his eldest is now adept at looking after herself.
In the evening Bessie will do her homework and when the children are asleep Jason watches TV for an hour before heading to bed by 9.30pm.
In 2010 a persistent cough and consequent respiratory problems prompted two consecutive visits to a hospital A&E, where Maude (pictured with Jason) was initially diagnosed with croup
The actor, who played Harold Wilson in The Crown (pictured) described how the pattern of his grief changed over time, from an acute pain to a ‘heart-shaped feeling that you carry around’
In The Sunday Times magazine’s A Life In The Day segment Jason described a 6am wake-up call before he fed his children toast for breakfast
Speaking to MailOnline in 2018 of his initial attempt to return to work following the sudden, heartbreaking loss, he recalled: ‘I tried to work immediately and that was never going to happen, but I did try for a week.
‘I had to do lots of things regarding the circumstances of her death so I needed to be at home.’
He added: ‘I think (sitcom) Trollied was the first thing that enabled me to go away and work and earn some money, because there was no money coming in.
‘It was a distraction in some ways but for Clara, she’s a jewellery designer so it was harder for her. I was sort of carried along by the people I was working with and it really did help, while there were other challenges for her.’
The devastated couple eventually found an outlet for their grief through support group SLOW, a Lottery funded north London based organisation set up by bereaved parents for bereaved parents, with whom they still maintain a strong bond some six-years on from the death of their daughter.
‘My wife works very closely with them,’ he added. ‘It’s a place where parents can sit down and talk about what’s happened to them with people who have had it happen to them also.
‘Some people are maybe 10 or 15 years down the line and others have just lost their child so it’s a fantastic support group. That helped us specifically. Also family and friends.
‘You have to sort of reach out and find them. They are there to help and you have to ask. Sometimes that’s a very daunting prospect to help someone when they’re feeling so desperate.’