‘I was battling serious depression’: Emily Ratajkowski brands 2019 ‘the hardest year of her life’… and admits she is taking better care of herself as ‘2020 is giving it a run for its money’
- The Gone Girl actress and esteemed model, 28, took to Instagram on Monday to lay bare a candid confession about her struggles
- She admitted she was feeling at her lowest when her mum Kathleen Balgley, 66, was taken ill, although Emily has never given full details of the illness
- Emily admitted 2020 – which has seen the world suffer a global pandemic due to coronavirus – is ‘giving 2019 a run for its money’
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Emily Ratajkowski has branded 2019 ‘the hardest year of her life’ yet admitted ‘2020 is giving it a run for its money’ but vowed to take better care of herself.
The Gone Girl actress and esteemed model, 28, took to Instagram on Monday to lay bare a candid confession about her struggles through the previous year and admitted she was battling ‘serious depression’.
She admitted she was feeling at her lowest ebb when her mum Kathleen Balgley, 66, was taken ill, and while Emily has never divulged full details of the condition she stated in December that her mum had received treatment at the Mayo Clinic.
Tough: Emily Ratajkowski has branded 2019 ‘the hardest year of her life’ and admitted ‘2020 is giving it a run for its money’
In December, Emily shared an image of her mum and her husband Sebastian Bear-McClard, before revealing Kathleen’s mystery illness.
Since then she has now revealed that she battled with her mental health throughout the year yet learnt a reel of lessons to help her.
Sharing a striking black and white image, Emily penned a caption alongside reading: ‘This pic was taken toward the end of last year. 2019 was one of the hardest years of my life. My mom was really sick…
‘I was battling a serious depression and everything felt very uncertain. 2020 is definitely giving last year a run for its money but I’m happy to say that I’ve have learned how to take better care of myself.
Pained: She admitted she was feeling at her lowest ebb when her mum Kathleen Balgley (pictured with Emily’s husband Sebastian Bear-McClard in December), 66, was taken ill
‘I don’t generally like to get too personal on here and I’m far from having s**t figured out but these were some of the notes I scribbled down on New Year’s Eve…
‘I wanted to share them and a little piece of my story in case they might make any of you feel less alone in the anxiety or confusion or fear you could be experiencing right now. (& yes quite was meant to be quiet!)’.
Alongside the striking image and the impassioned quote, she then shared her handwritten list of lessons.
Her words read: ‘Things I learned in 2019. True satisfaction comes after quite patient hard work // You can’t control other people’s perceptions so do not let their perceptions dictate your life or who you are //…
‘Your feelings are always justified and should be honoured. That doesn’t mean they are real // The things that other people see are successes will not always be the same as the things that actually make you happy //…
Upsetting: She confessed to the difficult times she faced through the year
‘Be curious about yourself and other people rather than judgemental // Loving means giving up control. This is hard, you can receive love, this is how you can give it // The world is completely unfair but that is no excuse //…
‘Telling your story is liberating // Never be afraid to ask questions. There is no such thing as dumb people vs. smart people, just those who are willing to be curious and those who are not //…
‘No matter how much you love them, protecting people from how they’ve hurt you will always be at great cost to yourself // Patience is a beautiful meditation //…
‘Laughing at yourself is everything // Being truly present takes diligence and care // The people in your life who love you are a wonderful gift, treat them as such // Life goes by too quickly to be afraid of making mistakes’.