Chrissy Teigen was in a somber mood on Thursday night when she shared photos looking back at the shoot for her husband John Legend’s Wild music video.
The video, which was shot in Mexico, climaxed with the 35-year-old model and the 42-year-old singer–songwriter revealing that she was pregnant with her son Jack, whom she would later lose to a stillbirth.
Chrissy wrote about how much she missed her son in a moving caption attached to the gorgeous photos.
Memories: Chrissy Teigen, 35, shared gorgeous throwback photos from filming John Legend’s Wild video in Mexico in September while remembering its pregnancy announcement for her late son Jack
One picture showed Chrissy lying on her side on a bed while wearing a white satin slip with a lacy back as a stylist tended to her brunette locks.
She looked more playful in another snap taken from her cabana as she glanced at the camera while her hair hid one eye.
Her shirtless husband smiled from behind her while leaning forward onto the bed.
A final image featured the Lip Sync Battle host looking blissful by the pool in the same halter-top outfit while showing off her tanned legs after getting soaked.
Lovebirds: Chrissy glowed in a white satin halter-top slip with a lacy back, while John posed shirtless by the bed in a pair of khaki shorts
Missing him: The model recalled announcing her pregnancy at the end of the video, but said she wasn’t sure she could ever ‘watch that video again without sobbing’
But Chrissy’s emotional caption contrasted with the otherwise-carefree photos.
‘I was 10 weeks along and out of my mind happy,’ she wrote. ‘I knew the video would take a bit to get together so thought it would be cute to share our news with the world through the ol classic hand on belly trick at the end.
‘I could have never imagined what would happen over the next 10 weeks…not sure I’ll ever be able to watch that video again without sobbing but I hope he feels my tears and knows we miss him so,’ she continued.
‘He would have been here any day now — if he were like Luna and Miles, I’d probably be holding him as we speak.’
Chrissy revealed that after giving birth to her son she was too traumatized to look at him.
Heartbreaking: Chrissy revealed that after giving birth to her stillborn son Jack she was too traumatized to look at his face. ‘I was so scared of seeing him in my nightmares that I forgot about seeing him in my dreams’
Happy family: Chrissy and John share two children, Luna, four, and Miles, two
‘I am so full of regret that I didn’t look at his face when he was born. I was so scared of seeing him in my nightmares that I forgot about seeing him in my dreams. I hurt every day from that remorse,’ she wrote.
The Chrissy’s Court star said February had been a ‘rough reminder’ and admitted she ‘thought the worst was over,’ even though her ‘life and emotions aren’t on any sort of schedule.’
‘Love you guys to pieces and am grateful for all your support and love,’ she concluded her post. ‘I firmly believe energy and healing travels through the night sky and I feel it, I promise I do. ❤️ and I love you jack. I miss you so so much.’
Chrissy and John shared their saga of losing their son to a partial placental abruption in September. The couple share two children, Luna, four, and Miles, two.
In pain: The Cravings cookbook author shared her behind-the-scenes post while recovering from surgery to address her endometriosis earlier on Thursday
Chrissy was already thinking about her late son the day before on Twitter.
‘My little jack would have been born this week so I’m a bit off,’ she wrote on Wednesday. ‘I truly feel kicks in my belly, but it’s not phantom. I have surgery for endometriosis tomorrow…but the period feeling this month is exactly like baby kicks. sigh.’
The Cravings cookbook author shared her behind-the-scenes post while recovering from surgery to address her endometriosis earlier on Thursday.
She looked blankly at the camera from her hospital bed in one snap from her Insta Stories while joking, ‘Please endo this pain lol lol lol.’
The disorder is a condition in which tissue that normally lines the uterus begins to grow outside of it, which can lead to debilitating chronic pain.
Other celebrities, including Lena Dunham, Padma Lakshmi and Julianne Hough, have been open about the pain they have suffered as a result of their endometriosis.
Ouch: ‘I’m OK. I’m home now. I’m all numbed up,’ she said sleepily while panning her camera to show the bandages on her stomach where she was operated on
Comfort food: She was relaxing in bed while watching episodes of Curb Your Enthusiasm and chowing down on a box of doughnuts
After her surgery, Chrissy shared some videos from her recovery while she was still feeling sluggish from the anesthesia.
‘I’m OK. I’m home now. I’m all numbed up,’ she said sleepily while panning her camera to show the bandages on her stomach where she was operated on.
She was relaxing in bed while watching episodes of Curb Your Enthusiasm and chowing down on a box of doughnuts.
On Wednesday, she came under fire on Twitter after sharing her story about ‘the most expensive thing you’ve eaten that you though sucked.’
Chrissy’s entry was about a bottle of wine that turned out to be many thousands of dollars more than she expected.
Sticker shock: On Wednesday, she came under fire on Twitter after sharing her story about one time she and John were recommended a bottle of wine that turned out to cost $13,000
‘One time john and I were at a restaurant and the waiter recommended a nice Cabernet. We got the bill and it was 13,000 dollars. HOW DO U CASUALLY RECOMMEND THAT WINE. we didn’t even finish it and it had been cleared!!!!’
Twitter users were quick to lambaste her for the post, with many people saying it wasn’t relatable.
‘hey, not everything I say on my twitter is going to be relatable to you because it is my life and my twitter and my stories. I see your tweets, I get your jokes, you are so funny, yes, you really nailed me,’ she wrote later in the day.
Giving up: Chrissy took a resigned approach to the vitriol; the star remains coping with the grief of losing baby son Jack in September, as the child was stillborn as result of a partial placental abruption